A soldier's rant..

Feeling really down at the moment. Why? Hmm. Simply because I've got a fully burnt weekend to endure? Well, that's the one that's bothering me a lot at the moment. But really, I see a real problem surfacing with my platoon. More and more people are gonna get out of my platoon. Injuries have already claimed 2 victims. And I hate to see them go.. The whole freaking situation is just weighing down on me.. I'm worried..

Anyway, for what happened this week. In a space of 2 days. I got arrowed twice! BIG ARROWS.. First was being scheduled to be Guard Commander on Thursday. Now, I know sooner or later I'd be scheduled to be one. But really, 1 day notice was not what I was expecting.. And in the current climate, after Mr. Dave Teo decided to elope with a SAR21 and a few live rounds of ammo, "extras" are dished out by superiors like nobody's business. Really not good. So on Thursday, as I was gearing up for Guard duty, I told myself, it's only one night. Get it through, and Friday will be book out day. Moreover, I've got Saturday to look forward to! Last 5 episodes of the HK drama that I've been catching on Sat mornings. And the clash between Man U vs Arse on Sat night!!

But, my platoon had to be arrowed to be "enemy" for Scout's Exercise.. And it's going to be from Saturday till Wednesday. 5 days! I haven't been outfield for so long since BMT field camp!! And they were still saying we'd not have anymore outfield till the overseas exercise. Herh herh..

Just feel really down at the moment. And it doesn't help when you've got one other commander who consistently siam all the 'siong' stuff and you still give the most. For whom? Right now, a big motivation is the men under my care and command. But, like I said, the platoon is gonna fall apart.. How long can we last?