Agonising..

"I'm in agony" is an understatement. If it isn't. It's a under under-statement. What else comes closer? I so fucking feel like banging my head on the fucking wall. Pardon the explicit choice of words. But I just feel so irritated. I just failed to get a silver for my NAPFA, again... And this time.. Nothing comes closer than that. I passed my 5 stations.. Standing broad jump was a small problem. But managed to clear it on the 4th try.. So the main point. I failed the 2.4km.. (meaning get a bronze std only) By 1 second.. How close can you get. Nothing closer. Seriously.. It's the smallest unit that you can get. Wtfh.. I cant swear enough. I don't know what went wrong. During the run, I ran the best that I can.. I didn't allow myself to stop.. On hindsight. The 5th round probably took a little longer. But I made up for it by running my lungs out on the 6th round.. I should fucking wear a watch next time.. And dash through the finishing line just like shuttle run. FUCK!!!!!!!

Even my new pet IT gadget lying in front of me can't comfort me much now. And oh, it's silver in colour. -.-" Back to Toa Payoh again next week. Damn it.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!