Sad dream

Hmm.. Had a couple of sad dream the past week.. I dreamt of my grandmoms.. Think the first one was about my maternal grandmum juz passed away but my paternal grandmum was still alive (wad the?!)**. Dun remember much about that one.. The second one was on the morning of Tue.. Remembered I was telling my maternal grandmum that my paternal grandmum just passed away (and I'm like 20 in the dream?!?!) and I cried like shit in the dream. And I also woke up soon after, finding tears on my face..

Er.. Dunno how come like that.. It's really nice to dream of them, however sad it might be.. Miss them. And I particularly miss my maternal grandmum's voice. I can still remember how she sounded whenever she came to my place.. As she walks down the staircase she'd be caling me and my sis' names.. And the time when she stayed at my place after her op really proved to be the best times I spent with her.. How I wish it was for longer and she didn't move back after she sorta recovered..

How time flies, it's been 7 yrs since I last saw her. One of the biggest regret in my life ever, and it'll be with me all my life, is that I wasn't there to "feed" her the last time before they closed the casket. Why?! Cos my hair was rather long then and the elders said if I didn't cut then, I'd have to wait for the first 49 days to pass, so I went to cut.. Well, and it'll be my biggest regret cos in the end, I had another hair cut within that 49 days cos now they say it doesn't matter..

Coincidentally, my sis brought up memories on the period when my paternal grandmum was ill juz now.. I hadn't told her about my dream. Think she'll read it here.. Sometimes, I can't help but wonder how much time I have left with my uncle and aunts.. Some of them are fast approaching 65.. While some are touching 60 this yr..

** For those who are wondering why I "wad the?!".. It's cos my paternal grandmum passed away 7 yrs before my maternal grandmum did.